Identity

Alright peeps...so, here's how it is. A true passion of mine is home decorating. I love, love, love to make pretty, organize, create. I am a detail person by nature. I look for the details. I notice the details. One of my passions from way back is interior design. In fact, my major for a short time was interior design. I wanted to go to The Academy of Art in S.F. after my time spent at the Napa Junior College and finish a degree in Interior Design. Plans changed for many reasons and I'm so thankful they did. However, I still have the "decorating bug" in me and I still love to go into a home that is rich in design and color. I have been in many homes recently that fan this flame. I want to come home and move things around, replace objects and mostly...go shopping for something new to behold and add a little something to a corner of a room or a wall.

Like many woman, this thing gets in me and it can even become a fixation. I want to make the old new. I want a fresh look in a room of my home. There is so nothing wrong with that...until it becomes an issue of identity. The Lord has been speaking so clearly to me about this lately. There is a tendency for me to look around and be dissatisfied with how my house presents. I don't like the couches. I don't like the dark tones of the wood in my home. I don't like my dingy carpet or my sparce accent furnishings and accessories. Oh, believe me, the list could go on.

Ok-for some of us it might not be our house. Maybe it's our body or our clothing, our job, or even our own children, whatever else we seek identity in. This is the place that God chooses to speak to me today.

Bottom line - I am to find my identity in Christ and Christ alone. If I'm looking to anything else to tell me I'm "Ok" then I'm still trying to fill a space in me that He alone can satisfy. If my "desires" cause an unsatisfied stirring within me, then I am not looking to the right source to satisfy. He alone is The Source.

He spoke to me today, "Gina, I am so much more concerned with the condition of your inner sanctuary. Pursue righteousness, joy and My Kingdom. I will satisfy every place in you and you will have peace."

Do I want a tidy, beautiful and comfortable home. Of course I do - and I believe he wants that for me too, but if this is where I am looking to find my identity and sense of 'self-worth' then I've missed the mark. "You alone satisfy my soul. In You do I find rest." There are just so many scriptures that speak to this place in us. I think it's time to run to the Word that brings Life.

...and as I type, in runs my youngest son who hands me a gorgeous lilac. The Father's reminder to me that I am His flower. When I am worshipping Him...my fragrance is sweet. Beautiful!